It's not the same.

If you asked me 3 years ago I definitely would have told you I loved running and absolutely wanted to run in college. Fast forward to now, I’m about to be a senior and I’m talking to some D2 coaches. I’m proud of my efforts and glad that they are interested in me, but I have zero desire to run. I just don’t feel the magic in it that I used to. I even took a break from running to see if I would miss it, I didn’t really. I don’t even know if I want my upcoming senior year. I know get joy from cycling and other workouts. At the same time though, I want to get back into loving running and force myself to run. If I choose to no longer run competitively, I will still run on my own, just not every day. People need change and I’m starting to realize that with my running. Running will always be apart of me. I will never forget the time I qualified for XC states my freshmen year, being the fastest girl on the team as a freshman, all year friendships I’ve made, achievements and everything else that comes with this. I’m still uncertain about my running, but right now, I’m doing other workouts and loving them. It’s just not the same anymore and I think I want to do another things, but its also a big part of my life. Running right now is like a toxic relationship, I can’t seem to get away from it for some reason. I always keep going back to it. But I think maybe if I let go, I would be better off mentally. I take competitive running so seriously, so maybe if I don’t do it anymore I will love running again.

- Anonymous